Rational Human and Irrational me.

It all started with a Bang some years ago. Before that Bang, there was nothing. Then, there is a thing that we call “time”. Make no mistake, human is the only creature, the only animal that has a clock. Birds do not own a clock. Neither do fish and mammals. Chickens wake us up every day thanks to the sun. Birds sing every day because of the need to mate. And sharks travel across the oceans ceaselessly just to hunt. Those animals do that every year, every month, every day and every minute. They do not stop because they are old. They only stop when they cannot. To them, there is no clock and thus, no fear for death. We have a clock. We are the only animal who think about time. We stay in the present, but we think about the past and think of the future. And here comes our irrationality.

 

Have you ever made a mistake?

 

And tell me, how did you react then?

 

To begin with, I believe that we all want to travel back in time to undo our mistake. That is absolutely the best and the simplest solution: jump on a machine, go back 1 day and stop ourselves from stupidity. There would be no consequences that needs dealing with. There is only one problem with that solution: we cannot do that. We cannot travel back in time, at least now. Sometimes, we try to fool ourselves with the thought that if we can focus with all of our energy and effort then it would be enough to get us back before the event. Sadly, such thing does not happen. And every night, when we fall asleep, we dream that we can undo everything. Then we wake up, sweating, realizing that it is just a dream (and I consider that a punishment for my mistake).

But what happens if 100 years from now, we are able to travel back in time? When will we go? Before the mistake? Or before the final world cup match so we can bet? Or to when we were born, so we could remake our whole life with no mistake? And how many times do we need to time-travel to make our life perfect? Where is our limit? And what is the point of that? Mistake is something very much unwanted. However, I do believe it is somehow necessary for us. Mistake can make us lose something, and it can also make us realize how important that thing is.

And believe me on that: if there is still no one from the future traveling back to stop us, then how bad can our decision be?

 

Why should we irrationally want to go back in time then?

 

Now that we are done with the past, we look to the future. Every mistake must be fixed. However, some mistakes are simply unfixable. Dramatically, we have no idea which one can be fixed until we finish trying. Of course, human is smart and there is always a solution: the soothsayer. I do not know about you but I myself once went to a soothsayer to ask about my future generally. Then, a [weird] friend asked me:

“What’s the point?”

“I wanna know my future. That’s the point”

“No. That’s the reason. I mean, what’s the point after all? What do you expect from that? You want to hear compliments from him? You want to be told that your future is good so that you can be lazy? Or you are so weak and scared that you fear facing all the difficulties ahead?”

[silent]

 

She did have a point, indeed.

I used to make a mistake that I really wanted to fix it. But I was not sure if I could. Thus, I started asking my friends’ opinion on my problem. However, only 2 seconds before I started asking my question, I recalled the above conversation. After all, what is the point? There could only be 2 possibilities:

1/ I could fix the mistake, thus I would do that.

2/ I could not fix mistake. I would still do that.

 

If you make a mistake and really want to fix it, go do that. There is no need to know whether it is possible or not. No.  I make a mistake, and I will go fixing it no matter what people say. Perhaps even though it is unfixable or the soothsayer says that it would be a waste a time, I will still do that. The result no longer matters because when we have something, someone very important to us, we cannot afford to lose them, to lose it.

 

And even though the future may get tough, if we really long for something or someone, we will always irrationally start the journey no matter what.

 

Because I know, at the end of every long hard journey, the destination will become wonderful. And I know, if I do not start that journey, I will regret for the rest of my life.

 

Which one is the irrational? The one who wants to look at the future or the one who does everything to fix the mistake even though it may not work?

 

Am I irrational?