I am not moral as I think I am [part 2]

Sometimes we read news about a rich guy buying a luxury car. Most of us will read such news with disgust. “What the hell are those rich guys doing? They are burning money, Jesus!” It is a very normal and reasonable reaction. However, how many of us have never dreamed of walking out of a Limo in front of our friends? Whenever I and my friends waited for a belated member in a hanging out, we sometimes said to ourselves that it would be crazy if that member showed up in this car, or that car, or the car coming. When we trade in stock market, the first thing we try to do is to buy at the bottom and sell at the top, though it is a very difficult and risky thing to do [and traders know that too]. Here comes the question: we all know that most of us are risk-averse, why do they still try to do such a crazy thing? Because we want to show people that we are better and smarter than others. Deep down inside us is a desire to be different and more special than other ones. It is called natural selection. A normal male will stand low chance of getting a mate. But what should we do if we are not so special? If we have only a normal IQ, a normal personality, or a not so good sense of humor, why don’t we try some kind of materialism? I used to laugh at and criticize those rich people who, in my opinion, did not know how to spend money. Now, I want to be one of them. And if you have never dreamed of being rich, of having a car, of living in a very big house with swimming pool or eating delicious food, then congratulation, you are more moral than me. Because I want that someday the world will know my name, no matter good or bad reputation.

What is the difference between a guitarist and a banker? A man who only knows how to play the guitar and works 4 hours a day is called a “hero”, a “rock star”, for chasing and living his dream while a man who knows almost everything about the society [sometimes he is able to play the guitar too] and work 8 hours a day is called a “boring man”, sometimes a “nerd”. It is not because the banker’s work is boring that we have the right to think that he is not living his dream. Some wants to play guitar. Some wants to play football. And some wants to play with money. The difference between a guitarist and a banker is that the banker’s dream is not so obvious and not so acknowledged by people. People love the idea that a guitarist needs potential and has to practice very much. It is true. However, who does not? Who does not have to work hard to earn money? Who does not have to risk? I have to admit that I am going to be a banker [if I am lucky enough]. Ironically, the wallpaper in my cell phone is the picture of a famous girl band or sometimes a rock band, not an economist or a banker, though I know they both deserve respect equally.

People hate violence. There is no doubt about it. We hate people who cause war, make fight or murder. We hear about some guys fighting in the street and think that those guys both deserve a punishment. My father always told me to stay calm and avoid being involved in trouble, even if I knew I could win the fight [a very low chance, but existing]. But Daddy, sometimes somebody does not let me do that. I now feel sympathetic for those who fight and sometimes kill. In some occasions, I just had to think that if there had been a knife or a gun in my reach, the guy standing before me must have been wounded. And FYI, if I was imprisoned because of doing that, it was totally worth it. Somebody has the potential to drive people mad. I am stupid, and I do not give a damn about people like me out there because we are all stupid. But selfish people do deserve some kind of treatment, even though illegally. “Mama, I just killed a man”

And if a man kills my family, I will kill him for revenge. But the society must be better than one individual.


kz